I started skipping meals back in June, and I’m trying to condition my body to skip more of them. I don’t eat lunch anymore, and I sometimes skip dinner/breakfast if I can do it without my parents finding out. Whenever someone asks if I ate, I tell them I did. I’m a terrible liar and I hate lying in general, but I have to do this. I haven’t told anyone why I’m doing this, which also feels like a lie to me. It’s because I want to lose weight and I have to punish myself for the things I do wrong every day. I’m also afraid of eating in front of others. But I can’t tell anyone because they’d laugh and say it’s stupid. Maybe it is, but that just makes it more necessary to do this. I don’t think I deserve to eat anymore.