I honestly hate lying, but I ended up lying to my first ever boyfriend and that I have had ‘feelings’ for him when in reality..I had other plans, and I loved my closest friend at the moment. At first it was fine, but time passing by, I felt this regretful feeling that I’m just lying to him and I never told him the truth. I only lied to him because he was just panicking and It’s my fault for asking who he liked and making him confess who it is and I honestly expected it to be someone I don’t know of..I kinda want to let this weight off my shoulders, even though I honestly felt like a dickhead when I told my closest friend (who loved me back, then lied about not loving me for some weird reason and then told me that he always loved me) and trust me, It felt so awkward when I told my closest friend it all, but now I just wanted to say:
Never lie to someone about having feelings to them, in the end it will make you feel guilty or It will do more damage once they find out that you’ve lied all along, trust me, it feels horrible
