several years a go my roommate came home and said he met a lesbian at work that i would love. I had been in a committed relationship for like 5 years at the time, so i wasn’t really interested. she was kinda loud and annoying. i didn’t like her much. my friend started dating her, she now claimed bisexuality, i don’t really care, i didn’t like her so i moved out and faded from my friend’s life. 4 years later we reconnected right before he married this woman. a year later i went through a painful split with my partner of 10 years and they saw me through it. i got very close with both of them. but as i got to know them i could see huge cracks in their relationship and the woman confided more and more. i am in love with her. and i believe that she is in love with me. they are on a ‘trying to save our marriage’ vacation right now. i hope they get a divorce so i can be with her. a few days ago my mom said she could see that i was in love all over my face. i’m worried that they are going to drag the pre-divorce stuff out and this will take forever. i’ve been single for two years and she is so exciting. we have never acted on anything. i don’t want to do that to him, but he definitely knows their are feelings…. when they fight he says things to me like ‘i know you will take good care of her…’ really passive aggressive stuff. honestly, i want to say f*** him- even though we grew up together and i promised him that i would never do this. but the chemistry in the air between his wife and i is insane. often unbearable. but in the beginning he met her and thought of me. i wonder if i had not dropped out of his life if they would have gotten married at all. long story. i can’t wait for my childhood friend’s divorce because i am in love with his wife. i guess at least we’re waiting, right?