once, I vented to a friend about some very personal and disturbing mental health issues, at times to the point of treating them as a crying post. even so, they tried their best to support me from their point of view. eventually, I couldn’t stand the notion of someone knowing all that about me, so I let us fall apart and eventually left them behind. some years later, I sent them a message apologizing for what I did and telling them it was best for my mental health to move on from them without getting back in contact. they didn’t respond.

I did them wrong, but I tried to make it right. whether or not it was enough is not up to me anymore. this is all the closure I’ll ever have; I won’t contact them now and beg them for more. they owe me no such thing. all I can do is acknowledge this, accept it as part of my past, and try to move on and be better.