I’ve always been afraid of ending up into an abusive relationship. But after being in a healthy one for nearly 3 years, I’ve noticed how similar I am to my own parents and their relationship has always been pure toxic. I am toxic, I am the abusive one and I’ve only recently realized that. I’ve tried to be better, gotten help from therapy and such, but I still feel horrible. My partner doesn’t deserve it, I love them with all my heart but I have no idea how to love correctly