We just got out of church and I have never been so happy to get off that hard pew. Last night I was with two boys at the same time which I’ve never done and never thought I would do but it just happened. I am so sore today. I’m wearing a maxi dress bc my knees are red and even my ankles are kinda bruised. I’m wearing a cardigan just trying to cover every inch. Luckily it was kind of cold this morning so my mom didn’t ask a bunch of questions. One of the boys was a guy I’ve been crushing on and the other guy was his friend. I didn’t realize they were both going to be in the room at the same time and it was weird and scary and hot all at the same time. When it was happening it was amazing and you feel beautiful then you feel like overwhelmed but after you feel gross and dirty. My crush said he couldn’t believe I did it and I was like you asked me to that’s the only reason! He said he didn’t think I would. I may have ruined things with him.