I am now a 33 year old married woman and have never been faithful to any man I dated or married and this is my third marriage.
I cheated on my first boyfriend the day after he asked me to be his steady girlfriend. I don’t know why I did it, maybe it was because I was scared of any type of commitment. It was much, I was only 15 and all I did was make out with this guy. I felt so guilty and I was faithful until I had s** with my boyfriend.
A week after I gave my virginity to him I had s** with this other guy. I swore it was the last time but it happened with three other boys before my boyfriend found out and dumped me.
I went wild for awhile, one boy after another until I met my first husband. I thought the wild side was over and for a year I was totally faithful but one night I was out drinking with some single friends listening to their adventures and next thing I knew I was in some guys car in the parking lot.
After that I think I just gave in and had a few affairs until my husband came home early and caught me with this guy that lived down the street. That ended my first marriage after only three years.
Again I went crazy, trying to forget what I had thrown away with one of the best men I have ever known. Then came Dave. I met him at a s****** party when I was with someone else. I immediately fell for him and in a month we were married.
I hated that he had s** with other women so I talked him into dropping the swinging thing.. He did but I secretly kept seeing other guys until he found out but he thought it was only one time so we stayed together. He had to go out of town to visit his sick mom. I found a party and went for it and was in bed with two guys when I looked up and he was just standing there.
He said it wasn’t because I was f****** them it was because I lied to him as he walked out of my life. I went to a lot of s** addict meetings but only ended up f****** a lot of them, listening to their stores and telling my own only turned me on.
Now I am married to a man who has no clue to what I was and am. Not a simple man but naïve. He works long hours and that gives me time to do the thing I have always done, cheat.