In an unemployed addict living with my mom, and I’m the only one who knows…

Im a guy, 20 years old. I’ve always had an addictive personality, acquired it from my departed dad’s side of the family, I believe. I used to be a heavy marijuana user, but managed to “kick” the habit for a week or two, only to replace it with alcohol, and a whole lot of it. Over the last couple of months I’ve been on a streak of drinking 7-8 beers/4-5 shots a night, whatever’s available, any day of the week. And when I run out, I take small, calculated amounts from my mother’s stash – a beer or 2, maybe a large glass of vodka (or 2, replace with water) A few days ago I was fired from my job of almost 3 years because I kept calling off since I was too hungover. So far I haven’t told anyone that I’ve lost my job. Instead, I’ve been doordashing during the hours that I normally would work, in order to fund my habit and convince others that I still have a job, no other reason. As a 20 year old college student living at home, I feel like an absolute scumbag, I’m saying that because I know that everyone reading this is thinking the same thing. I haven’t even bothered to apply for my junior year college courses… I don’t want to make this too long, so I’ll just say if anyone is going through/has gone through this situation I’d love to have a chat with you, since I feel that I have no one in my life that I can talk to about this mess I’ve made for myself. Thank you to anyone who has read this far, and good luck to you if you’re in any situation similar to mine…