I am gay and attracted to Asian men. I have tried for over 15 years to find someone I can spend my life with. Gays are sometimes worse to each other than straight people are to them. I feel I am judged for being white. Being middle age. Being what gays call a “bear,” which means I’m not a lean man. I approach a “gaysian” and it’s almost instantly a freeze-out or a confrontation. Like I am trying to recreate the British colonial empire. I just want to love someone and feel love in return. 🙁
