I think I’m trans, but I literally can never come out, ever
My younger brother came out back when all the dsmp and alt 2020 s*** was happening so it is kinda his whole personality, it always felt like he was just doing it as a trend because that’s the kind of person he’s always been, one to try and be anything if it gets him pity, or people saying “you’re so brave” it felt insulting to me a little, he verbatim said “I don’t know, one day I just kinda went, oh I wanna be a boy” this was so painful to hear because ever since I can remember I’ve wished I was born in a different body, I wish I was the opposite gender, he was almost immediately bought a binder by my older sister and I can’t help but feel jealous of someone who can come out so easily
I can never come out though because of how my parents took it, my dad straight up doesn’t believe in trans people, saying crap like “if they weren’t born a guy then it’s not a guy” and making extremely transphobic comments on any trans person I know (albeit not to their faces) it’s still extremely disturbing, and my mom seems to support it but not fully understand it kinda like she thinks trans people are fine until it comes to her own kids.
I’m never gonna use the wrong pronouns or deadname my brother though even if it feels like he’s only trans to add to this victim personality or whatever because I believe everyone has the right to express themselves through their gender and identity
It just f****** s**** I guess
