I hate that all my friends are f****** autistic except for two. It’s f****** annoying. I feel like the only normal bloody person in the group and it’s f****** annoying! Like it’s always “gimme attention! Gimme attention idc about anyone else’s feelings or problems I’ll gladly cut into conversations and say s*** no matter how bad it is to get attention!” And then you ignore them on the group chat for a minute and it’s like “why is everyone ignoring me I want to kill myself so bad I’m going to do it…” And everyone IMMEDIATELY jumps to their aid like WTF IS THAT S***.
Like there’s this absolute IDIOT in this group, the most autistic m*********** of them all (I’m not friends with him, but he’s always pushing his way into the group getting us in trouble and s*** and it’s f****** annoying) and dude this guy makes me want to f****** slit my wrists with how fucked he is. Bro eats paper and ANYTHING he finds on the ground, screams at the teachers and is constantly dragging attention to us and always threatening to kill people and himself. He threatened to f****** r*** me for no reason and everyone acted as if it was fine (when I brought it up with the teachers they pretended it was fine because apparently saying ‘ill cut his f****** d*** off if he tries to touch me’ is an innappropriate response to someone threatening to r*** you). Like dude the next time he does something to me I’m going to make sure I hurt him real f****** bad.
Like then there’s this sweetheart, still autistic sadly, who liked me. Constantly told me he liked me. Commented on my t*** and my a** and was always staring at me and asking to go out with me. The body comments made me flustered but eventually made me uncomfortable because they were so out of the blue. Also, I really liked him (as a friend) and I loved listening to him rant about his interests. What pissed me off though? I’d start talking about my interests and BOOM he’d cut in to talk about his. Me being me I don’t talk over him because 1) he’s Autistic and 2) I don’t want to be rude.
Back to the shocking not autistic friends. One, she’s annoying. Cannot handle her presence. Just being around her frustrates me. Two) I like this other one, she’s funny and really sweet and cool. I knew she’d be THE ONE the moment I met her dude like we got along really well. I’m so glad my first high was with her and not some idiot. BUT she’s almost never at school :/
Anyway thanks for listening to my ted talk lmfao