My oldest and best friend died back in December and I’m getting divorced. I’ve learned that me and my friends widow have basically been living parallel lives. I’m divorcing a narcissist and as much as it pains me to say, my friend was narcissistic as hell too. I’ve been in the healing phase of life after living with a narc for 24 years. I’ve been studying narcissism for five years so I help her understand what she was dealing with. I think we’re falling for each other. She’s a beautiful person who has had to play a role and hide the truth for as long as I have. I feel guilty because he was my best friend (who I apparently didn’t know as well as I thought I did). We spend a lot of time together and if we were to become a couple things would get messy fast. She’s the polar opposite of my ex. I can see a life with her. I’m conflicted.