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A very long time ago I used to j******* around my family basically due to my rapidly declining mental well-being and health I started just enacting on s*** due to the voices in my head telling me to do s*** so I used to purposely like go places where my family frequented or just when I was around people like say I had people that I knew that were like a sleep around me and I’d start jerking off and I know I’m a terrible human being for it I live basically everyday of my life regretting it and hoping that one day people can forgive me, and yes I’ll probably be going for mental health for this cuz I don’t want this devolving into a full i***** thing I think it might be something around the whole idea of feeling safe around them but I know this makes me a dirtbag human for doing it anyways just hope one day I can fix myself and make up for the wrongs I’ve done.

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Ex wife refused her punishment. Let s** coach/coordinator know. He was very disappointed in me but told me to let things blow over and he will convince the other married men i kneel for to start coming around again as long as my ex wife stops coming over. Understandably they dont like the risk od her showing up unannounced wanting to see me on my knees again. But he said he and or his son would start visiting my mouth again soon as long as i agreed to changing locks on house and shed where i orally service them. I agreed and he and his son came over with new locks and we divided and conquered changing the locks (without any time on my knees). They told me they had talked and would find another woman to take the son’s virginity with women. They told me that they were telling me this for two reasons. So that my place if i was willing would be the safe space for the son to experience a woman. Father and son also agreed that that experience should be something that the son experience both me and the woman, and then the woman separately, so that the son could decide his own preferences. The father also said that he would like to use my place to put female candidates thru their paces to select the right woman for his son,’s first experiences with a woman. The father even said he was sorry for having to punish me so severely but he did it because i was responsible for bringing my ex wife into all this and putting all the neighborhood hisbands i kneel for at risk. He even said that while he did not see it being the same woman he eventually selects for his son, he was willing to find a female FWB for me to replace my ex wife and told me he understood how it all happened but that i would be happier in the long run without the insane toxicity of my ex being the outlet for my heterosexual side. I have not heard from ex wife since the attempt to convince her to take her punishment for her contribution to the issue and idk when i will hear from her next.

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