I am getting married this year to my soulmate. Last year I sexted with a girl and even thought of ways to have s**. It was only a fantasy I was never going to go ahead with it. It eats me up still.

I cannot tell my fiancé. It will crush her. She has an eating disorder and abandonment issues. In 2021 she was self harming and suicidal. It terrified me.

I’ve been going to therapy. It unlocked a memory of when I was younger I was taken advantage of by someone when I was drunk and I woke up naked. I didn’t realise it then but it gave me a lot of esteem issues of my own.

I just want to forget it all and move on. Each day I work harder and harder to be a better partner to her. I hope I am enough and I never lose her