i constantly want to kms. but i cant. because my little sister would be left all alone w my bipolar mother and i can’t have her turn out like me. i wish she wasn’t here so i wouldn’t have to take care of her bc honestly she contributes to a lot of my feelings because i am a teenager and have to take care of my little younger sister who i obviously never signed up for. i have to take care of a child i never wanted or asked for. i have no friends. my ex bf just left me and he was the only thing that even remotely made me happy. so now i have nothing. except the burden of my sister. so i live miserable everyday with no motivation whatsoever except feeding my sister, making sure she goes to school and is able to get away from my mom whenever i am able to remove her.

i care so little about my own life now i haven’t done any school work all semester. i have tried to make an effort to make friends but it hasn’t worked out. my only friend is my ex and his sister. but my ex keeps saying and begging to be friends but then says he doesn’t want to talk to me for 3 days. my ex’s sister, 3 years younger than me, is my only friend. no friends of my own at my school so i follow my ex around like a lost puppy so i’m not alone.