i feel like ever since my ex broke up with me I’ve js been not myself. everytime I hear a song about her I get this empty feeling inside of my chest. now that I have my current gf I feel much better, and I know shes the best for me… but part of me still misses my ex. It’s confusing to the point where I’m stuck between if I miss or hate her. It’s so bad I don’t even know who I really am. i keep lying to my girlfriend despite saying ‘i would never lie to you”. i also think part of me wants to engage with other girls. i feel like such a terrible bf but i really do love her and i want to get better. I’m just afraid she’ll leave me if i tell her the complete truth so I’ll keep it to myself