This has been bothering me for so long I have to share it. I lost a friend in 2008. She and I shared a lot of similarities and we got along because of that, we looked alike and we were even just a month apart in age. However we grew apart in the 90s but I still considered her a friend. The reason we grew apart is because of our career paths. She went into the adult industry at around 1994. She had a mental breakdown in 2001 and quit the industry. I watched one of her videos and it haunts me. She was with many men, dressed as a nurse. She didn’t have to do it, but she sucked the condoms of the men in the film when they finished. It really struck me as odd because it completely defeated the purpose of the performers using condoms at all.

Around 2010 or 2011 my daughter was dating her now husband, and she used to have him over on weekends. One night they had gone out. After a having a couple glasses of wine, I was tipsy and in the mood, so I decided to treat myself to a nice bath with candles and some alone time. While the bath was going, I gathered the old towels for a wash, and decided to pop into her room to get her robe. In her trash bin was a very large and very full used condom, just sitting there on top of papers, completely in full view, tied. It was ridiculous, but I picked it up and remembered how heavy it was. I went to flush it, but I set it on the counter instead I don’t know why, the video was flashing in my mind. I finally entered my bath, took and untied the condom, I remember my hands were trembling. God help me, I sucked it clean just like she did in her video.