I’m homosexual but I can’t come to terms with myself. I can’t accept myself. I’m not the homosexual who wears rainbows and tells people that I’m homosexual. I don’t hate heterosexual people and I don’t make my entire personality about being gay. But for some reason I still can’t accept myself. I’ve done everything to change it but I can’t. I’ve even prayed to God but he’s not answering me. Is he not listening? Or is he not really real? I don’t know anymore. Sometimes I have an urge to bully the openly gay kids at my school and make them kill themselves. I wanna take my insecurities out on other people and hurt them. I don’t want to. I’m trying to control it. Any advice on what to do???