I’ve been such a lazy c*** lately
I have had no motivation for anything in my life
My work is suffering, my social life I can’t participate in unless I’m high on something or drinking and I don’t know how to interact and connect with anyone any more. Nothing interests me and all conversations have no interest to me.
And I feel guilty as hell for feeling this way. Especially towards my family.
I feel so lost and weak.
There’s nothing particularly big going on in my life either which is different for once. Yet I feel so overwhelmed by everything. I’m barely holding down a full time job but don’t know how to ask them for help. Being male I don’t like being seen as weak.
I’m trying to have healthy routines like going to work, showing daily, going for a walk with the dog.
I’m moving countries in 2 months so this could be a factor but it’s only been the last few days it’s been decided for sure it’s going ahead.
I’m hoping the move and change of vibes and scene will help.
I’ll miss my family but at the same time I cant let these things in life hold me back.
I’m also hoping getting out and about again I’ll be able to meet someone cause I feel like where I live is so limited and narrow minded thinking too.
I’ve tried my best here but it’s just not what I’m looking for here either. Call me picky but f*** it