My current boyfriend is so sweet. He is everything I never knew I needed. I’m his first love, but he isn’t mine. I think I still love my ex, who was my first love. I always knew that I would always love him…but it’s been 3 years since I ever talked to him or saw him. He is happily dating someone else and I am happy for him. I am happy in my life….I just miss him so much. We weren’t great together. Our relationship was toxic, but it was definitely because I was undiagnosed with bipolar 2. I just wonder if he ever thinks about me. If we ever really had a chance. I dont know who I see in my future, especially when I keep looking back at my past