I’m 14 I’m love sports. I am straight. I think I’m fat now. I did nothing wrong. Or maybe I did. She had a real picturing on her profile. When I got there it was dude. I ran. But he caught up. Covered my mouth with his hand and told me if I screamed he would cut my throat. I never made a sound. I just cried. I feel like a girl. I feel so weak. So violated. Why me? Why did he choose me? He pulled my jeans down and then my underwear. The spot in his hand. It felt so cold on my b***. I remember every thrust. 47 in all till he finished inside of me. I was laying face down. He pulled me by my ankles off the bed. Orders me to get dressed. I was so numb. I tried. He yelled. I got dressed. He then said leave and to keep my mouth shut. I’ve never told anyone. What do I do?