i hate the fact that i love my boy best friend, in a romantic way. he’s my first love. he’s the first guy who i could never stop talking to. he’s just so amazing in every way. ever since we went to different schools everything parted though. my feelings are still booming for him since 5th grade but i know he doesn’t feel the same. im not the best looking per say. but i truly do love him and i could imagine us being together forever. he liked my best friend (even dated her for like a week lol) but i feel so guilty about having a crush on him. these feelings im afraid won’t leave. he’s my best friend and i’d hate to lose him. i’ve never confided this with anyone because i would hate for someone to tell him and then he’d get grossed out. so for this reason, i’ve never told anyone about my love for him. but idk how long i can hold it in. i love him and that’s the cold truth. i love my best friend. i want to grow old with him. he truly is an amazing person and such an amazing best friend but i want to be more than that.