I masturbated and I used mind projection indicating to women that I’m a sissy boy who likes women to s******* me with s******* dildos while I wear women’s clothing and g-string p****** and engage in homosexual activities while they watch and I was selfish hipocrytical prideful disrespectful tyrannical impatient defensive argumentative devisive angry immature irresponsible ungodly pathetic goofy devisive feminine oversexed disgusting I lied I was unloving unmerciful unforgiving irresponsible lazy blame shifting I was anxious afraid faithless worried paranoid I was threatening self rightous I had a martyr like attitude and I used profanity