I feel guilty, it comes in waves and passes by like a storm. Sometimes I think Im not worthy of my title, or Im irredeemable in a sense, which I am. How can I proudly call myself a nurse if I know I’m not acting as one?

My actions aren’t pure, I deeply know it isnt, but I find myself not stopping anytime soon

Why? Why cant I? Why cant I just, learn?

Its still not too late, I feel bad for letting everyone down.

I’m, I’m….

I can lie as easily as I breathe now

I tend to overexaggerate stories now to make them sound interesting

Why?

Is it because I want you to listen to me? To look at me?

Think I’m interesting?

Its a pathetic display in my opinion

I wasn’t like this before

Now my heart is filled will all kinds of emotions

I strayed from my path of goodness, and turned into something I cant forgive myself

I just wanted to get that out of my chest, maybe someday I’ll look back and think that this is nothing but a mere pebble in my life