God I sinned . Joe’s been gone for about a year and a half now . Two weeks ago I seen Roy one of his male nurses from the rehab center . I know I’ve shouldn’t have but I gave him my phone number . He called yesterday and asked me out on a date . I agreed on going out . We went out for lunch . During lunch I learned he was thirty years younger . After lunch we visited the zoo. Afterwards he took me home and walked me to the door . Before he left he leaned down and kissed me . My heart melted and I kissed him back . I looked up and asked if he was in a hurry and said lets see if this works out and smiled . He followed me inside the house . I was scared like sneaking a boyfriend in the house when I was a teenager . Right to the bedroom we went . We were just like two teens racing to get undressed. Jumped into the bed and fourplay started . After a good long f******** I was finally soaked . I told him I was ready . I looked down checked him out before penetration . I’m thinking oh my god . He mounted me and slid that d*** in me and the f****** commencing . I grabbed his a** and pushed him fully inside me . He knew ! He ponded my p**** and it felt great . I came right after he shot his load . My head spun and I remembering saying f*** me . We fucked again . Afterwards he rested , me knowing that he had to work that evening .