When I was 13 I let my 14 year old brother f*** me. He was really nice and cute and we started playing around about a year earlier. First it was just getting naked and me helping him j******* and letting him feel my t*** but we got carried away one weekend when our parents were gone to Lake Tahoe and I let him f*** me. It was not great at all, not enough lubrication and I was nervous and scared but I still wanted him to do it so I can’t blame him. No condoms so thank God I never got pregnant. I worried so much about that you know. Anyway once was enough and I decided we would stop all that other stuff too. He wanted to continue but eventually got another girlfriend and stopped wanting to s** play with me. I think it affected our relationship. We have never been close and I think it’s because of all that i***** stuff we did. If I had my life to live over I would have never let him start. I never told anybody about this not even my hubby but it does feel good to confess. Now I need another glass of wine. Bye.