I make people believe we have a future together when that’s not what I want. Most of these relationships only form bc of my lack of being able to establish solid boundaries. It sounds bad, but at first I really do have feelings for these people, but after a while I get bored and annoyed with them but I can’t cut them off or tell them so that results in me stringing them along for months, none of them ever decide they don’t want to deal with my half assed attempts to stay in touch, it’s like they’re all okay with barely speaking or receiving texts and calls back as long as they get to say I’m in their lives. In a way I think I’m doing more harm to myself than I am to them, I get annoyed at myself for not just being able to tell them that this isn’t what I want anymore, they’re all dead weight in my life and it’s adding to my depression, why can’t they just decide they hate me or don’t want to talk to me anymore. I hate that I feel like I’m leading people on but they’re apparently okay with being led on, that sounds s***** but you’d think after months without a phone call from someone you’d move on.