sometimes i wish i could physically beat my mother up. i’ve never actually even dared to hit her but i feel so so bad for wanting to. i find myself sometimes even thinking of what would actually happen and imagine the situation and that always makes me feel even guiltier. i guess i just want her to feel the same way as i do but… physical abuse is not the way, that’s one thing i should always remind myself. i do not want to become her. but still sometimes i wish i could just hit her and hit her and hit