I'm beginning to realize that a lot of the things I held as truths were merely delusions. Im beginning to realize that someone who I thought was evil and

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I’m beginning to realize that a lot of the things I held as truths were
merely delusions. Im beginning to realize that someone who I thought was evil and manipulative was
just a victim of my own cruelty and neurosis. I am filled with shame and guilt
from all of the harm I have caused. I am filled with remorse for terrorising
someone who went out of their way to help me by saving my life. I will use all of these
difficult emotions and realisations to cultivate loving kindness for myself and others. I want to make sure
that I do not repeat these mistakes I have made. I do not want to let my own delusions to allow me to cause psychological
harm to others. I do not want to be a problem anymore. I want to take accountability for my actions and cultivate growth.
I want to be more in touch with my and other’s humanity. I want to be more capable of looking at things from different perspectives
than my own. -cb

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My husband always watches p*** and said he fantasized about me being with a b******** man. On vacation in a bar , I noticed a muscular young black guy watching me. I’m 28, 120 lbs with perky breasts. I started thinking about the fantasy and was getting a bit aroused. My husband was really drunk and I knew he was ready to call it a night. I told the black guy our room number in the hotel, he said he was on the same floor. I asked him to meet me in the hallway. As soon as we entered the room my husband hit the bed, I knew he was out for the night. I removed my p****** and bra and put on a short skirt, I was really going to do this. He was waiting for me in front of his room and pulled me inside rather quickly. He wasted no time kissing me and pulling off his pants revealing his huge manhood. He layed me on the bed and forced his large p**** into my mouth. I was scared because this was happening too fast. He forced it down my throat and I began to gag. After a few minutes, he pulled up my dress around my stomach and saw my tight little p****. He spread my legs and forced his big d*** into my wet hole . It hurt ,but he buried it deep inside me. I begged him to stop but he kept thrusting me. Soon I started getting used to the size and it started feeling very good. I begged him to f*** me good as I grabbed his balls. He was making me c** so hard. He had his way with me for about an hour and I had never had that many orgasms. He finished in my mouth and I eagerly swallowed every drop. I went back to the room, barely able to walk. My husband was still passed out. I get so h**** now when he fantasizes about a black man using me. He has no idea

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