my mother caught me watching p*** in the WORST. WAY. POSSIBLE. she borrowed my headphones without telling me and it connected to my phone so coincidentally while i was watching ol’ p**********. i did lie to her about it being the first time i watched it. lucky for me she said that exploring stuff like this was normal and i shouldn’t be ashamed of myself for it, but this feeling of awkwardness is hard as hell to shake off. i feel dirty. really dirty. for watching p*** in general and this is how i get caught doing it. things could’ve been so much different if she just asked me before using my headphones and if i didn’t leave them out like that. why the F*** did this have to happen. honestly the preferred way of letting this out would be going to a confessional or something like that but i guess doing this and talking to thin air works too. i wish there was some more way to make her forget all of this or change the timeline to where this s*** DIDN’T happen. i feel sick and i’m crying idk how long it’s gonna take for all of this to subside