There is two guys that I like which one is acting his old ways where he doesnt respect me anymore. The other is finally respecting me when we just met he would lay in bed with other people and gaslight me saying that he never done such a thing. Over all as much as I care for them both and have feelings it will not affect me if we ever stopped talking because I secretly fell in love with my bestfriend who was there for me when no one was. I feel like a bad person but all I ever felt was used just for entertainment when they were bored. I know I deserve better but if my better is without them then I’ll do it. I have so much selflove but I wanted to help them because they needed me and thats my problem im a persons pleaser.
