I’ve come to realize I have really bad anger issues. Today, I got annoyed by a really small thing and ended up yelling about how much I hate my mother in law. She heard all of it. Of course, I don’t actually hate her. She does some things that annoy me but she’s a good person.
The problem is, when something annoys me I get beyond pissed and can’t contain myself. I’ve done things like punch the wall or hit myself a lot. In my head I’m picturing knocking the hell out of the people I love. I don’t want to hurt anyone.
For context, I was abused and neglected. I feel like I’m turning into others in my family and like there’s no stopping it. I hate myself for it and I just felt I had to share. Thanks~