So tonight I went awol on my baby mother because she told me she was going on a date we’ve been broke up over a year and I’ve had a girlfriend since ( lasted a week ) but I felt the need to tell her anyway .. because I’m 29 with the brain of a 15 year old thinking it would make her jealous and it did she cried the f****** lot . Didn’t win her back tho did it .. tonight I threatens to kill the both of them . Smash ever window at her house where her 90 year old nan lives I might add . Why because I’m a selfish c*** because I can’t let her go . And I lost her because of my self . Thinking she would never leave me because we was this fairytale relationship that everyone was jealous of . I cheated I regretted it every time but I did I don’t know why . I’ve thought about killing myself but I doubt I will it’s more of a sympathy cry now I’m going to focus on myself f*** her as long as my kids good I’m good but I can’t talk to her at all any more I really need to detox myself now . Thank you for listening who ever you are my rant is now over