im not supposed to touch my passbook but i did. and the truth is i did it just so i can buy a secondhand phone. although i dont really need it. i cannot seem to control my desire of wanting things. all the money in there is an accumulation of years of paper bills from family and other close people. and i was told to not spend a single one, but i did it under the guise of “fixing” my old phone. truth is, it’s too much to fix a phone. well, in my country it is. the value of money here is low so 150$ is already a lot for someone.

im screwed and everytime i think about it which is very often, guilt consumes me. should’ve fought the urge to. and i dont know what overtook me. i keep getting myself into stupid situations.
now im just waiting for my mum to find out and reprimand me. they for sure lost trust into letting me handle my passbook. it’s understandable. anyone would laugh. im already twenty and i have a passbook that my mother and sister won’t let me touch… it’s crazy