I wish I didn’t have a baby brother.
It’s just the stress of taking care of him has come to me too, because my parents just can’t take care of 3 children.
Being the eldest of the 3, I feel like often everything just comes down to me. I have 2 younger brothers, and the elder one is close to my age, yet he can’t take care of himself. He wastes the food my father cooks, he throws tantrums, and he can’t compromise with others. He is a selfish individual who at the end of the day, only cares for himself.
He barely helps to watch over the baby brother, and spends most of his day locked in his room playing Roblox.
My father is under huge stress of being the sole breadwinner, with my mother just having a part time job that doesn’t pay well, and she doesn’t even enjoy it as well.
We have to keep moving houses because of my baby brother. We have to worry about his future school, we have to move just to get him into a good school like ACS.
I never feel like I’m at home, and everyday is just stressful when I’m facing reality.
Not only that, I’m worried for our future household. With the price of HDBs increasing so much, how can we pay? My parents say they also don’t have any money for their retirement.
My father has a frown on his face everyday, often coming back from work and just saying “He’s tired.”
My mother looks completely exhausted.
My brother doesn’t care for anyone but himself.
My baby brother is spoilt and screams loudly all day long.
Things aren’t any better in my school either. The culture in **** is terrible. Everyone says “that’s a good school!” “At least its not as bad as RGS or other schools!” There are a few good eggs, but the majority are wrapped up in their own bubble. Honestly, I’m no model student as well. I don’t hand up my work on time, I don’t ask questions either. My friends leave because I’m no longer funny. I no longer feel like cracking a joke, or being happy.
They mock me, saying I’m emo and that I just bring down the mood.
I know I do. And I’m so sorry.
My family is crumbling apart. My Teachers hate me. My friends are leaving.
How do I cope with all of this?
-A stressed 13 year old