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I’m in a relationship, a great relationship really. But there’s days where I miss my former job. I was a cam girl (off and on) for 4 years when I met her. She is absolutely repulsed by the idea of cam girls and the things they do, however it’s always been a guilty pleasure of mine that I’ve always loved. It was the biggest turn on ever to be on screen and have hundreds of women and men drooling over me and complimenting me. I never engaged or got intimate with anybody, but I also sold my underwear, etc on the side. And I genuinely do miss the job just cause it was exciting and paid so well, but she’s extremely jealous of the idea of others seeing my body, and I know if I brought it up it would destroy our relationship. But I only wish so much that I could do it again. When I was a cam girl my s** drive was higher than ever, but once her and I got serious I stopped camming out of respect for our relationship. And every day I miss it. I miss my OnlyFans, I miss my cam sites, I miss selling my toys and underwear, I miss getting people off without even speaking to them, I miss it all. But out of respect for our relationship I don’t do any of it and I realize that without it, my s** drive is basically dead. I have to pretend I’m on camera when we have s** so I can really get into it. And I feel so bad. But I know she’d never approve. And as much as I want so desperately to do it in secret so I can go back to feeling that way I know it would ruin things. I just so desperately miss being an internet w****. Some days I hope we break up so I can do it again but I know it’s wrong. Is there something wrong with me?

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I played with my mom’s bod during my high school days she was all broken back then her parents died one after other in the same year after that my dad cheated on her and we left him to live in her parents house there I used to blame her for our situation and me frustrated would always end up arguing with her untill she gets into tears and accepts her defeat that made me felt bad later but the same would happen again after a day or two one after another argument made me felt as a superior male over her in the house that made me felt as a dominant one over a broken submissive female that soon made me want to get her ready for reliving my frustrations or for accepting me as a mating male in bed, as I kept winning such arguments frequently making her in tears surrender, one night i went into her bed late after she got asleep I and crawled under her blanket for the first few times I tried groping her I use to grab her b**bs she woke up scold me as I’m yours “fu**in mother you idiot” and go to the other room this happened alot of times but with every night I played more with her b**bs and then pinching and pulling her ni**les one night I slid my hand into her p*n*ty and rubbed her c*it as she tried getting up I grabbed her with the other are and my legs around hers she tried hard but I kept on moving ahead with what I was doing soon she got so wet she covered her mouth with her hands and started crying I could clearly feel her getting swelled up down there with every passing second more slippery sticky stuff coming out while she was in tears crying with one hand on her mouth and another one trying to pull my hand out but I kept f******** her roughly until I felt her cl*t pumping on my fingers, she cu**ed with shaking org**m. Right after that I left her she got up and went to the other room.

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