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Watching p*** will hurt my relationship with my wife. If she finds out, she will be devastated and our relationship will never
be the same. I love her so much, I never want to hurt that way.

I don’t know why I watch it/m********* to it. I seem to watch it whenever me and my wife have an arguement and we
leave things unresolved. Another trigger also goes off whenever I am left alone in the house or am alone. It also maybe the fact that
our married relationship has been with 5 chilren and sleep and tiredness effects the quality and quantity of our s**.
Ultimatley maybe this is why I resort to p*** to get that quality o***** feeling.

Maybe becasue I was never taught what was s** was and found out myself from friends and watching p*** to know what s** is. So I
have always hide whilst watching it an considered it taboo.

I find leaving the house when I have to be alone prevents me from searching it up. This works most of the time. I want to break free from this.

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