Recently….I dropped a friend that I’ve had for about five years. Things happened and I thought about it for a few days, I realized I didn’t want anything to do with anything online. I’m emotionally tired of all these online friendships & relationships. I feel relieved I dropped them but I can’t seem to stop thinking about day and night. I usually wonder sometimes what they’d be doing right about now, probably scrolling through their phone. A few days ago they sent a message in a group chat we were in with a friend of mine. I had a sudden urge to send a message but knew it was a bad idea, i did it either way. We had some laughs but then they pissed me off and when I left my friend had sent me a screenshot of them saying how they’d just gotten over me and now they had to restart. I guess because of that I kinda of feel like s*** again like I did it for revenge when to be honest I guess I wanted to talk to them but not at the same time. I wish we could’ve stayed friends but it’s better this way, for the both of us.
