Trigger warning. S/A. Im sorry.
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The person that I did it was a friend. Or I thought so he was, he always tried to make moves onto me and most of the time i rejected him and a few times I didn’t. I liked him. I really did for a long time, and when I didn’t he did. He tried to make moves onto me and I became uncomfortable, I just wanted to be friends at that point. We did do things in the past and fooled around before, but now I didn’t want to do anything anymore. And I thought he knew that by me distancing myself and just stating to him we are only friends. He kept trying though, and wouldn’t stop. I kept only trying to be his friend and he was my friend in public with other people and stuff but in private he always made remarks like saying, “You’re Beautiful you know that right?” and, “You’re one of the most attractive people I’ve ever been with.” He always complimented me. Only ever in private though. Never with anyone else. We were just kids at that time, hanging out and having sleepovers with other friends. And one time he was over and we were chilling in my room and he kissed me. I didn’t pull back but i didn’t lean in either. This has happened many times and i was very obvious uncomfortable. But he kept kissing me and ever so moving closer starting to feel me up, he pulled my hands closer and put it into his pants and made me feel it. I felt powerless. I wasn’t sure what to do then. And so i went with it i thought it was fine to feel like that. I did it in the past so it should be okay right? I thought so. i was so uncomfortable and after that was done he just left. Just said he had to go and i stayed there. Thinking about it. He came over a few more times after that and same things happened. Every time leaving me feel powerless and like I had to do it cause i did before and i was fine with it then. Am i wrong? I mean. I didn’t stop it. But I didn’t want to either.