Ok this is going to be a long one but I’m going to try and make it as brief as possible well Im 16 and I just recently had a boyfriend and my first kiss and it was only like a peck but I never really liked him to begin with and I just felt overwhelmed whenever he was around so I broke up with him that was like a few months ago and I also have to add that I have a hard time finding someone I like and that likes me back so when a really hot guy that I have been really close too said that he liked me I was hooked. He had a girlfriend at the time but she was cheating on him so he just wanted to end that relationship but not seem like the bad type. So I didn’t gave him a straight answer cause I knew the girlfriend and one of his ex too. So just to get out of any problems I decided to tell my friend that her ex was said that and at first she was ok saying that if that’s what males us happy that she’s happy for us bit then when we were at school she was being a annoyed and mad at me and even threatened to fight me. I do consider her one of my closest friends but Ik that she is really fake and overall dosent care about me. After that everything kind off calmed down until she started seeing the boy with another girl and she did not like her and I tried contacting the girl through the guy making us talk about about that topic again and after all the s*** my friend did to me I was pretty salty and agree to be friends with benefits with the guy and lemme tell u it’s completely different from how I felt with my first boyfriend like its hot and interteining and we did so much more than just pecks. I’m scared cause I may actually start to have feelings for him and like I said before it’s so hard for me to find someone I actually like so this is just all new to me but I can’t hide how much guilt I feel for lying to everyone and mostly cause I feel like I’m betraying all three of the girls and I feel like a terrible person. If anyone has advise I’ll gladly take it cause I’m just so overwhelmed thanks for reading 🙃