A relationship that ended over seven months ago, has been haunting me every day. I caught her sending pics and messaging other men on Snapchat by accident and I ended things. She’s the only woman that I’ve ever truly been myself around. We talked about getting back together for a month after that, but I grew tired of her asking me out and changing plans. She said she was conflicted about things. I didn’t think she was cheating on me, but I wasn’t 100% sure of anything. She called me a month after we broke up and said how she always fucks things up and was remorseful for her BS. I said I still wanted to be with her but it’s hard to trust her.
The truth is, I was in love with her. She made me feel like I could be myself and I’ve thought of her every day since we parted ways. She sent me a message a little while back telling me she’s done with dating people and she’s giving up and “No hard feelings.” I told her she’s a good person and deserves to be happy.
That was the very morning of my wedding to another woman. I’m so conflicted and pissed off about everything. I fight with my new wife daily over nothing. I feel guilty about maybe wanting a divorce and being by myself for a while. This is so f****** depressing and I’m miserable all the time over these feelings.
