I raped my baby brother. I was 12 and he was 1 or 2 years old, I masturbated in front of his face and came in his mouth. When I was done I immediately felt a large overbearing wave of shame, I prayed to God for forgiveness and even considered suicide that night. I’ve never done anything so horrible and it has been eating away at me for so long. When my brother started to grow up I’ve done nothing but my best to be the best big brother I could be. My parents never found out and what hurts even more is that they say all the time how much of a good brother I am, they think I’m a good person but I know what I’ve done and I know who I am. Not a day goes by without me regretting what I’ve done and all I can do is wait for Hell.
