I don’t have anyone I can talk to about this and I feel so guilty. I need to process what I’ve done.
Last night I got really drunk and went home with my best friend and her boyfriend because I couldn’t drive.
The whole thing is a big blur, but I feel like I “came to” and the point where I was sucking his d*** and licking his balls. Then I got on and rode him.
She was asleep upstairs.
What the hell have I done?! I would NEVER want to hurt her and I have NO idea what got into me??? Why would I do that?? Why would I have s** with him?? I want to blame the alcohol, I want to say it’s not my fault – but it absolutely is. Drunk or not, I clearly chose to engage.
I can never tell her and I pray to God he never feels the need to confess to her.
