Im racist and I hate it. Its not that I see people of other ethnicities and hate them, but its the opposite. Their race is one of the first things I notice about them and I treat them differently because I’m so worried of saying something accidentally racist. And in a weird way, I feel like that makes me exactly what I’m trying to avoid. I live in a largely black area and have had many friends and close coworkers who are dark skinned who I care about a lot, but I’m always nervous around strangers because I’m so worried of offending them. Its a weird feeling and I feel really bad that I cant just act normal around them.
