HI,
I’ve done something very messed up and i can’t forgive myself for it so here’s how it began.
So a 3 years ago i moved to another city and it was hard for me and my dad but my aunt let us live in her house till we were ready to get a house which very kind of her.
My biological mother wasn’t a very good mother to me so i considered my aunt as a sort of step mother i loved the way she treated me I still smile sometimes thinking about it.
But fast forward a few months we were having a party it was very cool one but little did i know that something was off my aunt wasn’t there and my dad wasn’t there too,
I didn’t think a lot about it but then it happened.
I went to my dads room and he looked devastated and i asked what was up and he said he was fine but deep down i knew it was a lie, i lay down my bed and he said quietly hey how do you say houses for sale in French.
I replied helping him next morning i woke up and my dad confessed what happened my aunt barged in the room very sad saying to my dad that he touched her daughter inappropriately i got very confused, and on that day we moved to another aunts house.
He also told me when and where and i was there when the supposedly groping happened and she called a family reunion but everyone was against her saying she should need therapy knowing my dad would never do that.
A few months had passed but i dont know why i began to get mad at her i dont know what had gotten into me i began harassing her with fake instagram accounts and say where she lived in exchange for nudes i would leave her alone.
Then everything went bed for me i knew i had fucked up but i couldn’t stop harassing her i got so mad.
Then i got discovered by another cousin i said it was fine and she said she wouldn’t tell anyone but then after all these years i still feel guilty and i can’t confess to her because i dont want to hurt my aunt that i loved so much.
So I had to carry this heavy burden all on my own I’m older now I’m 16 and still feel bad about it i have so much regrets.
I havent told my dad i can’t i would be stupid to say he wouldn’t understand I’m sure but I’ve gotten a lot wiser now.
I’m done carrying this burden i would love to talk about it with someone.
