(Burner account so my buddies don’t figure this out)
I’m a freshman at a senior military college in the U.S. I have broken a lot of rules and have lied to keep myself from getting in trouble. It’s gotten to the point where all I do is lie and I can’t stop, or I am totally fucked.
For instance, I have only gone to a handful of formations (all formations are mandatory unless you have an academic, or medical excuse) this entire year I’ve been here. I get out of 95% of them by saying I’m going to tutoring, but in reality, I find an empty room somewhere at an academic building on campus and just screw off until I know it’s safe to head back to the barracks.
I have faked illness and pain, and even faked being exposed to COVID so I could skip PT some mornings. Speaking of mornings, I failed a class last semester because I figured it was better to sleep in than to go attend lecture, but I told everybody around me it was because it was a hard course (it was, but I totally failed, failed, the course.)
I drink underage in the barracks (which could get me not only arrested but kicked out as well), I have fucked and sucked in the barracks, and better yet, I’ve wanked when my roommate was asleep in my room.
I just overall feel like a major p************, and now I think I’m becoming more and more known as a bad cadet and person. It just all snow balled since the beginning of the semester and honestly, it’s all been so stressful I’m just trying to s*** bag as much as I can because it’s better than straight up quitting.
