A very close friend of many years admitted to me that they got s******* abused…but it was over text while I was barely awake…and it didn’t register for me. So I just like…sent him a random Youtube link. And then he abandoned me. And then I got all mad. And what do I do? I block him for months and months…and unblock him and come crawling back…and finally realize what happened…that he opened up to me…and I didn’t even acknowledge it…
If going directly against my own values and everything I stand for and care about is this easy, what’s the point in living? What’s the point of being alive if I f*** s*** up this easily? This often? Who else have I hurt? Probably everybody I know…What’s so good about me that I deserve to live? My life’s purpose was supposed to be helping people…but obviously I’m not good at that…
