I haven’t showered in a week . Haven’t washed my hair or bathed . I feel terrible. My life has lost all meaning. . I feel disgusting. My home isn’t messy .. it’s just dirty . Everything is filthy . Dirty floors . I hate hate hate dirt .
I have OCD severe … I’m paranoid about any and all dirt. I dunno why .. but I feel things .. crawl through dirt . Bacteria . Things unseen by the human eye.
I’m obsessed about locking doors .. and double and triple checking the stove . I’m a wreck .
I dunno why.. I’m terrified to clean the vacuum.. I’m terribly scared to touch the hair and dirt in the filter .
I admit that I have schizophrenia.. and have skipped a boat load of meds . I dunno why .. when I know better.
My dear friend died 3 years ago … I’m missing him sooo much.
Anyway..just wanted to let my secret out
