when i was in middle school, i kinda “stalked” this upperclassman (girl) because i wanted to be friends with her. i thought she was really cool, and we had common interests. well, i’m not really sure if it count as “stalking” but i would constantly try to reply to her Instagram story and DM her even though we never met in real life. she never responded to me, and i gave up trying to contact her. when i think about what i did to get her attention, i feel sick and cringed and incredibly incredibly embarrassed. if i was her, i would feel really weird out and freaked if some random middle schooler was trying to contact you on a daily bias.
my problem though? the upperclassman girl dropped a grade (to my grade) due to personal reason AND SHE’S GOOD FRIENDS WITH MY BEST FRIEND. AND THEY SEE EACH OTHER LIKE EVERDAY. SO WHEN I SEE TOGETHER, I JUST AVOID EYE CONTACT AND WISH I NEVER TRIED TO BOTHER HER DURING MIDDLE SCHOOL BECAUSE ALL THE EMBARRASMENT AND GUILT AND SHAME ARE DROWNING ME.
OKIE, THATS MY CONFESSION. STUPID I KNOW. JUST NEED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST. BECAUSE I CANT EVEN TELL THIS MY BEST FRIEND
