Today I’ve learned that it’s normal for some childhood s***** assault survivors to become s** addicts. While that fact makes me feel like less of a freak… It feels like my abusers have another controlling hand on me even this many years after the abuse. It feels like maybe I don’t know my body at all and my willingness to be k**** may be just be a trauma response. Maybe I’m just this submissive to men because I’m deep down scared that they’ll just make me anyway. 🤦🏻♀️ I sure wish I had someone I could talk this over with in person. I need to find other sa survivors
